I have no idea what to write so I'll just start.... no comments on the last three or four posts, is it because nobody is reading or is it because nobody knows what to say? I was just listening to Nancy boy (and now "one way or another" by blondie) ahhhhh... how I love that song :P SO! Sailesh tonight with my baby Boo and her sweetheart :) I hope he makes me have an orgasm but considering my luck I'll probably be a delusional puppy watching a speck of dust... it'l be a riot :D

You know when you have a blogg site, and you have alot to say but you dont know if you can say it cuz you don't know who'll be reading it i.e. mother, brother, sister... grandmother even. so I'll just have to sit on this secret I have :( dammn realatives!!!

Today have decided to comprise a diet atleast for the next 24 hours, consisting of fruits, vegetables and soy milk :) I know I wouldn't survive the month on this diet but I will still try for as long as I can (I'm betting on a day and a half ;P ...)

Oh lawdy guys, mum's got the fever people! she has her eyes on a dog! she is going to bring a little mutt to our happy feline home :s well... as long as I dont have to pick up its poo or smell it's doggie breath I'll be fine and who knows if I wont love the little critter. I don't know how happy our Snoopy will be but I think he'll live... I'll just give him twice as much attention as I give the dog when he arrives.

I can't wait for school to be over!!!! even if I will fail and I repeat IF!, it will be ok cuz then I will have sweet sweet summer vacation OH and who can forget my and Arna's trip to London right after final exams? oh we will have so much fun, seeing a actual gay district and the goth clothes stores and the fact that we'll get payed during our stay there!!!! :D I might just explode with glee right now!

Oh holy j.c.! Jezus week is upon us! This really infuriates me, what does jesus have to do with my school, well atleast what does christianity have more to do with my school then buddism, hinduism, wicca, satanism and etc.? This is a public school known for its diversity for being liberal so I say if we can't atleast keep our education and religion seperate then we can equilise this and have a satanist week, hindu week, wicca week, buddah week and every other religion week. I know what you're gonna say: "well why dont you do it then" my reply will be: "well I shouldn´t have to, because it has no place in any SCHOOL (not a curch but a school)". Hmmm... I feel like you think I'm trying to ban all religious natured things in our school... well no, I think there should be all kinds of groups within the school that people who are interested in said religion, political view etc. should be able to join to get informed and participate in activities they might decide to engage in, this would be reffered to as free will of the participant, him or her deciding to fill their brain-meats with jesus goodness instead of this violation of freedome of choice. So, to sum up, no to jesus week, yes to jesus club.

Rammstein plays with my brainwaves as I write this, nice beat and the fact that I don't understand a word makes it so cool and mysterious, seriously they might be singin "I like grandma panties, go french fries" and id be all "fuck yeah! fight the machine!!!!"

Damn... I had this nice momentum going, wrote alot and now im just empty.... damn secret still scratching my frontal lobe...

anyway... I think I'll retire now.

bye babes and please do comment if you have any thoughts at all...

~Peace comments in my brain when I sleep

Somebody to love.

Can anybody find me somebody to love
Ooh, each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
(Take a look at yourself) Take a look in the mirror and cry (and cry)
Lord what you're doing to me (yeah yeah)
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody (somebody) ooh somebody (somebody)
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?

Yeah
I work hard (he works hard) every day of my life
I work till I ache in my bones
At the end (at the end of the day)
I take home my hard earned pay all on my own
I get down (down) on my knees (knees)
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord somebody (somebody), ooh somebody
(Please) Can anybody find me somebody to love ?

(He works hard)
Everyday (everyday) - I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm going crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Ah, got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe in
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Ooh somebody - ooh somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?
(Can anybody find me someone to love)

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat (You just keep losing and losing)
I'm OK, I'm alright (he's alright - he's alright)
I ain't gonna face no defeat (yeah yeah)
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
One day (someday) I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love love love
Find me somebody to love
Find me somebody to love somebody somebody somebody somebody
Somebody find me
Somebody find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love ?


(Find me somebody to love)
Ooh
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me somebody, somebody (find me somebody to love) somebody, somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me, find me, find me
Ooh - somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Ooh
(Find me somebody to love)
Find me, find me, find me somebody to love
(Find me somebody to love)
Anybody, anywhere, anybody find me somebody to love love love!
Wooo somebody find me, find me love.

Breakup, funny thing... and not funny haha... more funny-makes-you-go-back-down-mind-path-of-former-life-experiences... I was thinking back to my former men, there is my darling Sverrir, I really REALLY loved him, he was so great, he taught me alot about myself, about other people and about life. Then there was Birtingur, I fell for him, head over heels but he also taught me a thing or two about people for, instance love is not enough, and big macho men can be the biggest cowards. Then Tom, my dear sweet love Tom. He affects me somewhere I can't even see, he makes the little voice inside me sing, but there is something missing, the little voice is happy but like so many times before my body wrecks it, I know if we were together I could be happy but I am a human being whith a slightly more active libido then most people I know.. I need to be touched and sadly he can't, my body wrecks everything. First man, happy, but my body was curious, allthough so was my mind, first disconnection was understandable. My body then tied me to the seckond one, put me in chains to him and I still am caught, whenever he decides he wants to, he can pull on those chains and im back by his feet groweling, hoping that I will be good enough... anyway I diagress. My body, mind and heart seem to decide things for themselves... what am I if not my mind, heart and body, did I choose these men or did sperate parts of me decide this? I dont know I'm pretty lost here.

What is love? which part of you contains it? Does it reside in your body? your mind? your heart? is it the voice? the chains? the curiousity and needs? what is it?

My darling boys, each and every one, platonic love, physical love, emotional love, they are so dear to me.. love or hate they are important to me. I wish I could hold them close, keep them in a room where I can visit them, tend to them like flowers, my own personal harem. They teach me so much... maybe sometime they can teach me something about myself :) help me find my way, that would be so incredably nice.

Now I depart :P hope you enjoyed and even got a little intellectually stimulated.

~Peace... peace has no chains... but it must have love

I and he are no longer a we, I am a me and he is a he, friends and lovers but not a couple. no pity or hugs, this is the way it is.

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~my mind is a blank...

I hereby post this song as a tribute to my boyfriend.

PROCLAIMERS : I'M GONNA BE (500 MILES)

When I wake up yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
When I go out yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you

If I get drunk yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you
And if I haver yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who walked 1000 miles
To fall down at your door

When I'm working yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's working hard for you
And when the money comes in for the work I'll do
I'll pass almost every penny on to you

When I come home yeah I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who comes back home to you
And if I grow old well I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's growing old with you

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who walked 1000 miles
To fall down at your door

When I'm lonely yes I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man whose lonely without you
When I'm dreaming yes I know I'm gonna dream
Dream about the time when I'm with you.

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who walked 1000 miles
To fall down at your door.


~Peace is just onethousand miles away....